How
did You learn Anna had Keratoconus?
In February of 2004, Anna's elementary school performed a school wide
eye screening. Her kindergarten teacher called me one evening and
said Anna's test came back stating she may have "possible myopia".
I made an appointment for Anna the following week. We walked into
the office thinking that the worst thing we'd hear is that Anna may
need to wear a cute little pair of glasses. At the end of the exam,
he concluded that she was in desperate need of vision correction.
We were stunned to learn how bad her vision was and yet we saw no
signs of eye strain. The doctor handed us Anna's prescription and
as a precautionary measure, he decided to do one more test. He explained
that this test most certainly would come out fine since it was screening
for a condition not normally found in children her age. The technician
escorted us to the topography machine and propped Anna up in the chair.
A few quick pictures and that was it. We were told that we would not
hear from the doctor unless there was a problem. Anna was so excited
to look at the new glasses she was getting so we made our way to the
racks of frames in the lobby. Before Anna was even able to put the
first set of frames on her pretty little face, the tech tapped me
on the shoulder and said that the doctor needed to talk to us about
her topography. My heart instantly sank. We were led back to the topo
machine were the doctor was waiting. He diagnosed Anna with Keratoconus.
We were given a very brief and nonchalant description of what KC is
about. We were told of only 3 current treatment
options- glasses, RGP lenses and transplants. It took all of 5 minutes.
I became physically sick and the technician made me sit down. I was
in utter shock.
How
Did You Feel After Being Told Anna had Advanced Keratoconus?
It was not something that we were expecting
to hear when we took Anna for a routine eye exam. Weeks passed before
I could actually say the word "Keratoconus" without breaking
into tears. Thoughts of how my little girl's vision would be impacted
crept into my head at every moment. I worried about the things that
she might "not" be able to do because of this disease.
I found myself feeling extremely guilty about all the times that
Anna asked me to stop for a moment and look at something but I was
just too "busy". I just assumed that I'd have a lifetime
to show my children all the wonders of the world. The guilt was
overwhelming at times. Some days I couldn't even bring myself to
look into her big brown eyes. Yet other days, I couldn't seem to
stop looking in them. I feared that kc would rob my little girl
of her childhood and force her to grow up faster than necessary.
What
Did You Do Next?
My husband and I decided that
we needed to seek out other professional opinions about Anna's condition.
Sadly, the conclusions were all the same no matter where we went.
Doctors told us that her topography reports showed obvious Keratoconus.
One of the most respected corneal specialists in our area noted
in her chart that there was "visually evident corneal thinning
over the apex". Reading those words evoked terror in me. I
can remember every detail about the day the specialist told us transplants
were inevitable. "It's not a matter of IF she will need transplants
later down the road, but rather WHEN she will need them", the
doctor replied. .
How Did This
Diagnosis Affect Your Family?
From
the attitude of our physicians, it seemed that diagnosing Keratoconus
in a 5 year-old girl was little more than just an every day diagnosis.
For our family it was the end of life as we knew it. I can't begin
to describe the devastation I felt knowing that my baby girl had
an incurable disease for which there seemed to be little awareness.
It just seemed that Keratoconus wasn't one of the "popular
diseases" and therefore little was being done to ensure a predictable
and pain-free future for its sufferers. No one could tell me how
fast the disease would progress or why she had developed it. Even
fewer could advise me how to help a 5 year-old learn to cope with
a disease that even the doctors we visited knew little about. I
realized that sometimes it isn't always the effects of the disease
itself that is so hard to live with; it's the uncertainty of the
future and the frustration felt that is most disabling. For our
family, it became disabling more so for me as the parent than it
did for Anna. Night after night, I stared at the topography print-outs
from the various doctors. I had made it my mission in life to learn
everything I possibly could about keratoconus. It consumed my life
and slowly began to take a toll on my health as well. In a matter
of months, I lost 40 pounds and had constant anxiety attacks. I
spent every waking moment trying to find a way to help my child.
The financial and emotional stress that a keratoconus diagnosis
brings also began to eat away at my marriage and our family life,
which also included our 3 year old son. I could see our world falling
apart each time I looked at Anna.
What Happened
Next? Did You Accept the Diagnosis and Prognosis?
No. We became
increasingly unhappy with it. We took Anna to visit the optometrist
who worked along side her corneal specialist in June. This appointment
left me with an uneasy feeling when we were told to disable our
cars front air bag and let her ride in the front seat in order to
help with the extreme carsickness that she was experiencing. Luckily,
an inner voice that once started as only a whisper began to shout
at me. The voice became so loud that I could no longer ignore it
and I had to find answers to the questions that were ringing in
my head.
So
If You Weren't Happy With the Diagnosis, What Did You Do?
Over the
course of months, I became very active on an Internet KC support message
board. I leaned on many people who themselves had Keratoconus. Many
of these people have become dear friends of mine. Through their posts
and emails, I realized that they all had the same fears and frustrations
that I did. Many of them were unable to find doctors close to their
homes that were knowledgeable enough to adequately fit them for lenses.
Some had been through unsuccessful or unnecessary transplants. Many
were having problems with contact lens intolerance. A few members
were even living their lives in a total uncorrected blur for the simple
fact that they didn't know what treatment option would enable them
to best manage with this disease. Yet many of their doctors failed
to see the impact that this was having on their everyday lives. We
felt and still do feel helpless to this disease. After months of help
from a dear friend that also suffers from Keratoconus, countless emails
to various doctors across the country, the pooling of resources, called
upon favors and a whole lot of prayers, I reached a decision that
many people thought was completely unnecessary. Anna and I boarded
a plane on September 26th, nearly 900 miles from home, to be examined
by a doctor that we had never met. I really had no idea what to expect
from the visit. I didn't know how I was going to pay for the trip
or how follow-up care would be provided. But everything inside of
me said that it was something I had to do for her. The doctor we went
to see was Christine W. Sindt O.D., Assistant Professor of Clinical
Ophthalmology and Director of Contact Lens/ Optometric Services at
the University of Iowa Hospitals and Clinics. She was recommended
to me by my KC-er friends as one of the best experts to diagnose Keratoconus
in children. She was my last hope to get those nagging doubts about
Anna's diagnosis out of my head.
What Was
Dr. Sindt's Diagnosis?
Dr.
Sindt did every possible scan to check for Keratoconus and after
all these tests she told me the one thing that I had not prepared
myself to hear when we boarded that plane to see her. She told me
that if Anna had Keratoconus at all, it was extremely mild.. This
was completely different from the other doctors we had seen who
prepared us for what they saw as the inevitable; Anna's vision fading
fast and then a transplant. I was stunned beyond words. Sometimes
good news can send you into shock almost as much as bad news. I
just couldn't believe it. Anna is currently being corrected with
RGP lenses. She now has corrected vision of 20/20. We still have
a long journey ahead of us but we now know her future is much brighter
than it once was.
So
What Went Wrong? How Did These Experts Misdiagnose Anna So Badly?
Anna's
prior medical records contained only axial maps (no elevation maps,
no irregularity maps, no posterior corneal maps, and no pachymetry
readings -either by topography or ultrasound). Not one of the doctors
did pachymetry (at least in their notes) which is most interesting
because the definition of KC is "corneal ectasia (thinning)".
So basically what went wrong was the doctors didn't do all the tests
needed to diagnose Keratoconus correctly. They used only one test
when they should have used many and it wasn't just the one doctor
who did this. It was all of them! The sad thing is our pain was
so unnecessary. It has forever changed who we are. I'm certain we
received the miracle that every parent prays for. Unfortunately,
we never needed a miracle...we simply needed a doctor who could
accurately read a topography report.click
here for a detailed description with eye maps
So What Now?
Who Is Fitting Anna with Lenses?
Dr.
Sindt is too far away to treat Anna on a regular basis. Therefore
she recommended Dr. Gregg Russell from Atlanta, Georgia. Both of these
doctors are truly amazing people. Dr. Sindt and Dr. Russell have not
only restored our faith in the eye care system...they have restored
our faith in mankind.
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